Oops,

So I don't post as much as I should.

Sorry.

I will try and get back in the habit soon. I am not into New Years Resolutions, but I hope i can be more consistent in posting soon.

In other news I had a wonderful Christmas. It was a good trip and I had fun simply sightseeing and relaxing.

Fun Stuff....

So I am going to see if I can figure out this Google Gears things and start blogging offline too. Might get me to blog more often.

Hope this works out for me.

Weekend

Well, as I sit here in Robert and Becca King's dining room I am struck by a few passing thoughts. One of them is that I am the only person in this house who is awake yet, one of the others is how great this weekend has been.

I have driven 3/4 across the state of Texas, for a wedding, and endured a blizzard. Now I have been told that as far as blizzards are concerned, this one was more of an off brand smoothie treat, that is a DQ joke if it missed btw. To my poor cold adverse, snow fearing mind it was a very odd, yet very real natural disaster.

So weather count for the last 12 months, Hurricane Ike, Spring '09 blizzard. I can only fear what happens this summer.

Besides the weather the wedding was beautiful, and I got to take quiter a few photos, and hopefully will get some of them posted soon. I am also going to try and have photos of the trip here and back.

Well it has been a great weekend, and I hate to cut it off, but I gotta get to work tomorrow.

Why does life always have to intrude?

Alive

Just wanted to let anyone who reads this know that I am actually alive. I need to try and use this more, but wow does life get busy at times huh?

Well If anyone wants more posts i guess leave me a comment or two.

Huh????

Ok, so this I really dont get.... why when everything is going well do i get a bad case of the "hate me's"??

I have a good Job, even thought it is not perfect.

I have the best girl friend I could bever hope for.

I have friends who care for me.

So why am I so discontent? Could I be such a perfectionist that I let even a little thing like an "off" day get me down on my self? Am I that petty, that things are so good, but that one little bit of dist drives me to depression?

I got not clue, oh well, here is to hoping sleep helps with the answer.

later folks,

August?

Where did this month go? Have I really been that busy?

I guess so.

The last few weeks have seemed to fly by, at work and at home. I have been so busy I hardly have had the time for some good old fashioned thinking about life in general.

I am slowly but surely getting back to me, for way too long have been a charade of a person that I thought would be a better person. I was more outgoing, more chatty, louder and "more fun" that I actually am. What I have noticed is that it is massively draining. I need to get back to me. I want to be the genuine me, the honest me, the me that I think alot of people at least respected if not liked. I might not have been alot of fun, but at least I was me and honest to who I am.

I am an engineer so I am looking for some help, what is the action plan for this? If you were to find yourself acting in such a way that you hardly recognized your own personality, what would you do to restore the balance?

Sorry, please no one think that I dislike myself, or even that I hate being happy, I enjoy both. What I despise though is the feeling that I have that I have not been genuine to myself. I guess I just need to take stock of who I am, and who others want me to be and see what reconciliation can be had in there....... or something like that.

Hopefully soon I will be posting a few more photos and blogs, this sometimes helps me solidify thoughts wandering around my head.

Comments please...... or not, your choice.

Weekend

Wow, I had a full week and a fun weekend that is for sure.

Saturday I went to the range with some of the guys and I had a good time out there. I am getting better. After that I went home and did some work on the computers. The afternoon and evening were taken up by a wedding in CS and it was a blast to be there, and an honor to get invited.

Sunday started off with dinner in CS at IHOP and driving back to Houston. After I woke up I was off to church. Today was bittersweet, our worship leader took his leave of us. We are going to miss him mightily and his efforts leading and teaching have been wonderful.

After lunch, i got to go to the movies and saw "The Dark Knight." It was very good, but felt just a bit off for me.

I have managed to get my "Homework" done this weekend and we will see if i can transport it to work tomorrow, I sure hope so as it will make for a wonderful showcase of some new capabilities.

Well I am off to bed soon, I hope..... sleep needs to happen more often for me.

Laterz folks, and as always, please leave comments.

UGHHH.........

It is days like this that remind me why I love Fridays so much. Not oly did I have 8 hours of training off site today I got the chance to go into work and put in an hour and a half cleaning up a mess and getting it off to a customer.

Days like this remind me why I like weekends.

Days like the remind me how alone you can feel at home.

Days like this remind me that I have good friends.

Days like this......

Vista

I do not know why people do not like the Vista OS. I have only had it for a few days and I have very few complaints or issues. I like the interface, stability has been great so far, and some of the updated chrome is nice.

For example I am loving the "Windows Sidebar", what i will be calling the gadget space. Right now, I am writing and reviewing this entire post in the gadget space. It is pretty cool if you ask me. Lets see I also have notes, two clocks, calandar and weather, CPU and Networking plots and monitors.

Due to ease and the fact that i will probably be using this a bit, hopefully i will finally follow through on posting more.

Leave comments, they make my poor small heart glow.... and that is a mental imiage for everyone.

Later folks,

Laptop Lifestyle

So computer health has been an issue in my house latley, laptop display has an issue, and the desktop is crash happy.

However at work, i got assigned a laptop and a special project. The laptop lifestyle at work is very nice, having the ability to move and still get your done is awesome. I had the ability to move to a quiet area and get my work done for real. It was very productive.

I get to go at it again next week and hopefully i will be able to get my own laptop back up and running.

Well i am enjoying my new desktop, it is execlent, and it works well too.

I am gonig to try and get better about posting, now that I have a few tools that might make things easier.

Still Alive

Howdy folks,

I an sorry I have been away, it just seems that life is getting so busy and hectic I find very little time to update anything. I will be trying in the next few weeks to keep this better up dated.

Drop me a message sometime, I like the feedback.

Soul Food

We all know I love food, and that I love to cook. We also know that I love to jabber on about the inconsequential in life. I have some favorite dishes that I enjoy preparing for myself or for special people in my life.

I have come to a dawning realization, Stir Fry, in a decent wok and a few ingredients is the best thing to ever run into leftovers. I love it, use up food already paid for (i.e. Cheap), you can use almost anything in it (Rice, pasta, any pork, beef, chicken etc.). Also it is a wonderfully quick method, tonight dinner went from the fridge to the plate is probably 15 minutes.

This may not seem to be real cooking to some people, correct there are not any exotic ingredients, not special plating, nothing special about it at all. To me however this is where my cooking soul lives, in the "feed me" zone. I live the place that hunger meets supplies, inspiration, preparation, and experimentation.

I mean it, who else would make spicy left over ham and rise stir fry, leftovers from Jambalaya, Christmas dinner, spices off the counter, and a bit of adventure to see if it worked.

I love to have fun, nothing fancy, nothing too involved, simply dishes that are tasty, easy, and good for the soul. Soul food is the meal that is made from the heart, soul, and love of the cook. I make myself some soul food every time I cook.

Put some Soul into your cooking, enjoy it, love it, have fun.

Still here

And still bad about posting.

I am really going to try and get better about this. We will see how long that lasts.

I simply wanted to let folks know i am doing well, I had a wonderful holidays.

Go check out the Photo Blog sometime and let me know what you think of the new photos i will be trying to post.

Hope ya'll are well,

Life

Is not just a good TV show on Wednesday night, but is also a very difficult thing to get a handle on. I really have to hope that life gets easier to handle this Christmas season.

I don't know if it is just me, but I think that modern America we have taken Christmas, the celebration of the bringer of eternal peace and hope, and replaced that celebration with slavery to a schedule. I know that it is not wrong to have a good time and enjoy a holiday with friends, however it is a problem when your attitude and mood go down hill due to the stress of trying to celebrate. I think so often I miss the point of holidays, they are not the time when you go out of your way to work yourself into a frenzy trying to make others happy.

I really want to take some time this season to really accept and claim the peace that offered freely to all by a little child born 2 millennium ago. I would implore that everyone take some time to experience peace in this season.

I want someone to hold me to this and to help remind me to find some measure of peace each day. I have a feeling that this is going to be counter to every last bit of the worlds requirements, but it might be the exact right thing for me.

Tell me what you think, and share some ideas for obtaining peace, if you would.

Welcome Back......

So yeah, I am bad about updating this thing. But come on, we all know that lives are busy, and everyone has a million things to do each and every day, right?

So I need to get better, I will try.

I do know one thing these days, Bible study is fascinating to me. I have this wonderful friend Mike Haskew, we can disagree on some points but with us it comes back to a point that we both agree on. I personally feel that it is one of the most intriguing relationships I have with anyone these days, to respectfully disagree with someone, yet not be concerned about trying to prove that one person or the other has to be right. So often these days we Americans are so caught up with the concept of "right", that we miss the concept of "friends". I know that I have done that in my own life, I have run people away from me by always having to be acknowledged as correct.

I think that what is really comes down to is pride. Pride drives you to think that you must be correct, and if that is true then all people must agree with you or they Must be wrong. I think that folks forget how simple a subject of right and wrong is, opinions aren't absolute, thoughts are not final; decisions are not cast in stone. Right and wrong is simple, Love the Lord your God with everything you have, and Love your neighbor as yourself.

On other, less deep topics, I had a blast a few weeks ago playing Flag Football with my company. They had a one day tournament and I actually am in better shape that I one thought. I played all but one down of 4 games, practically back to back. I had several sacks, an interception, and multiple hurries. I played both ways, O-Line and D-Line. I ran all day, and played it clean. I had fun.

If folks get a chance, I have a new MP3 player and I would love to get some philosophies on the correct way to order a play list.

Leave a comment and stuff, makes me feel loved.