Huh????

Ok, so this I really dont get.... why when everything is going well do i get a bad case of the "hate me's"??

I have a good Job, even thought it is not perfect.

I have the best girl friend I could bever hope for.

I have friends who care for me.

So why am I so discontent? Could I be such a perfectionist that I let even a little thing like an "off" day get me down on my self? Am I that petty, that things are so good, but that one little bit of dist drives me to depression?

I got not clue, oh well, here is to hoping sleep helps with the answer.

later folks,

August?

Where did this month go? Have I really been that busy?

I guess so.

The last few weeks have seemed to fly by, at work and at home. I have been so busy I hardly have had the time for some good old fashioned thinking about life in general.

I am slowly but surely getting back to me, for way too long have been a charade of a person that I thought would be a better person. I was more outgoing, more chatty, louder and "more fun" that I actually am. What I have noticed is that it is massively draining. I need to get back to me. I want to be the genuine me, the honest me, the me that I think alot of people at least respected if not liked. I might not have been alot of fun, but at least I was me and honest to who I am.

I am an engineer so I am looking for some help, what is the action plan for this? If you were to find yourself acting in such a way that you hardly recognized your own personality, what would you do to restore the balance?

Sorry, please no one think that I dislike myself, or even that I hate being happy, I enjoy both. What I despise though is the feeling that I have that I have not been genuine to myself. I guess I just need to take stock of who I am, and who others want me to be and see what reconciliation can be had in there....... or something like that.

Hopefully soon I will be posting a few more photos and blogs, this sometimes helps me solidify thoughts wandering around my head.

Comments please...... or not, your choice.

Weekend

Wow, I had a full week and a fun weekend that is for sure.

Saturday I went to the range with some of the guys and I had a good time out there. I am getting better. After that I went home and did some work on the computers. The afternoon and evening were taken up by a wedding in CS and it was a blast to be there, and an honor to get invited.

Sunday started off with dinner in CS at IHOP and driving back to Houston. After I woke up I was off to church. Today was bittersweet, our worship leader took his leave of us. We are going to miss him mightily and his efforts leading and teaching have been wonderful.

After lunch, i got to go to the movies and saw "The Dark Knight." It was very good, but felt just a bit off for me.

I have managed to get my "Homework" done this weekend and we will see if i can transport it to work tomorrow, I sure hope so as it will make for a wonderful showcase of some new capabilities.

Well I am off to bed soon, I hope..... sleep needs to happen more often for me.

Laterz folks, and as always, please leave comments.

UGHHH.........

It is days like this that remind me why I love Fridays so much. Not oly did I have 8 hours of training off site today I got the chance to go into work and put in an hour and a half cleaning up a mess and getting it off to a customer.

Days like this remind me why I like weekends.

Days like the remind me how alone you can feel at home.

Days like this remind me that I have good friends.

Days like this......

Vista

I do not know why people do not like the Vista OS. I have only had it for a few days and I have very few complaints or issues. I like the interface, stability has been great so far, and some of the updated chrome is nice.

For example I am loving the "Windows Sidebar", what i will be calling the gadget space. Right now, I am writing and reviewing this entire post in the gadget space. It is pretty cool if you ask me. Lets see I also have notes, two clocks, calandar and weather, CPU and Networking plots and monitors.

Due to ease and the fact that i will probably be using this a bit, hopefully i will finally follow through on posting more.

Leave comments, they make my poor small heart glow.... and that is a mental imiage for everyone.

Later folks,

Laptop Lifestyle

So computer health has been an issue in my house latley, laptop display has an issue, and the desktop is crash happy.

However at work, i got assigned a laptop and a special project. The laptop lifestyle at work is very nice, having the ability to move and still get your done is awesome. I had the ability to move to a quiet area and get my work done for real. It was very productive.

I get to go at it again next week and hopefully i will be able to get my own laptop back up and running.

Well i am enjoying my new desktop, it is execlent, and it works well too.

I am gonig to try and get better about posting, now that I have a few tools that might make things easier.

Still Alive

Howdy folks,

I an sorry I have been away, it just seems that life is getting so busy and hectic I find very little time to update anything. I will be trying in the next few weeks to keep this better up dated.

Drop me a message sometime, I like the feedback.

Soul Food

We all know I love food, and that I love to cook. We also know that I love to jabber on about the inconsequential in life. I have some favorite dishes that I enjoy preparing for myself or for special people in my life.

I have come to a dawning realization, Stir Fry, in a decent wok and a few ingredients is the best thing to ever run into leftovers. I love it, use up food already paid for (i.e. Cheap), you can use almost anything in it (Rice, pasta, any pork, beef, chicken etc.). Also it is a wonderfully quick method, tonight dinner went from the fridge to the plate is probably 15 minutes.

This may not seem to be real cooking to some people, correct there are not any exotic ingredients, not special plating, nothing special about it at all. To me however this is where my cooking soul lives, in the "feed me" zone. I live the place that hunger meets supplies, inspiration, preparation, and experimentation.

I mean it, who else would make spicy left over ham and rise stir fry, leftovers from Jambalaya, Christmas dinner, spices off the counter, and a bit of adventure to see if it worked.

I love to have fun, nothing fancy, nothing too involved, simply dishes that are tasty, easy, and good for the soul. Soul food is the meal that is made from the heart, soul, and love of the cook. I make myself some soul food every time I cook.

Put some Soul into your cooking, enjoy it, love it, have fun.

Still here

And still bad about posting.

I am really going to try and get better about this. We will see how long that lasts.

I simply wanted to let folks know i am doing well, I had a wonderful holidays.

Go check out the Photo Blog sometime and let me know what you think of the new photos i will be trying to post.

Hope ya'll are well,